neither here nor there.

bAcK tO bLaCk RoCk. it was just over one month ago that i returned home from burning man. it feels like that whole trip happened in another lifetime. this past month has been so busy it has felt like at least three. i'm exhausted. on the verge of being totally worn out and rendered utterly useless. oddly enough, though, i think that this is the state i am most comfortable in and, given the choice, i probably wouldn't want it any other way. don't get me wrong, there are details i would change and pieces i would move, but only to free up time and opportunity to do more, see more, create more, be more.

last thursday night found colleen and me standing in the back room of beauty bar in the middle of a crowd of people eager for free red stripe and a glimpse of stellastarr* looking at one another saying, "i miss burning man." we were sweaty and satisfied and full of adrenaline having just seen a fantastic show, having just had the joy of hearing the one song we wouldn't have been able to get over not hearing. and, yet, even in those moments of joy, even when you are in the middle of doing one of the wonderful and crazy and unexpected things being in new york sometimes puts in front of you, even when you are so keenly aware of and in tune with how frigging lucky you are to be young and in new york, that thought pops into your head, "i miss burning man."